Epiphany!!

Have you ever had one of those moments where you thought you understood something, fairly well, only to realize in that split second moment, that NOW you TRULY understood? Well, I had one of these recently.

I've been reading a book by John Piper, entitled "Don't Waste Your Life!" and while I was aware of him as a pastor, I was not aware that he was an author, or that his writing was so inspirational and even educational. It was while I was reading this book, and studying the doctrine of tithes and offerings, and how it applies to New Testament Christians, that I had my epiphany moment. You see, I always thought I pretty firm grasp of what the Bible meant when it said "the Lord will provide for your needs". I was fully cognizant of the fact that what I think I need, and what God knows I need are not necessarily the same thing. (To be completely honest, they are probably rarely the same thing. I am a mere fleshly human, after all.)

In the very first chapters of this book, it finally became truly clear to me what the Lord means by our "needs". I guess I always took it for granted that food and clothing were needs, regardless of the situation; and that therefore, I would always be provided with at least that much. I have now come to understand, however, that God will provide these to me, as needs, if I do indeed need them in order to continue to live my life in faith in Him alone. I don't know how I ever thought anything other than that. I admit to being ashamed of not seeing this, even after all the time I have spent studying the Word. But I thank the Lord that now I understand, and now I pray that I can apply it. The Lord does not promise any of us, at any time, that we will be free from poverty or want, even that of food or clothing, in some situations. Think of the severely impoverished believers in Third World countries. They have needs so much larger and more severe than I could ever dream of, in my own life! And yet, they continue in faith, because the Lord has provided that which they need to do so.

That brings me to another truth that this book brought home; and one that I had never really considered before. And that was this: Have you ever noticed that few believers, here in the West, have ever been asked by an unbeliever "what is the reason for your hope?" You know, that question that we are all supposed to be ready and willing to answer, anytime we are asked? The reason, John Piper states, is that unbelievers don't ask, because our lifestyles shout out to them that we hope for the same things they (unbelievers) hope for. We are consumed, as much, if not more, than they are, by our possessions, and our luxuries. We have become, in large part, a society beset by wealth and comfort, unimaginable by those truly in poverty. Sure, we may have difficulty paying bills, and we may not have a new car- or any car at all, we may even have some genuine needs. However, I for one, agree that we are a far cry from those believers in Acts that "sold all their possessions and shared with anyone as had need."

Many of us give the requisite 10% to our home churches, and sometimes more. Others may not tithe at all, because they believe in giving generously without regard to percentages. But here's a thought...how many of us have ever actually considered selling all our possessions, and living only on what we absolutely need, in order to continue in faith? A heart-breakingly few! I ashamedly must include myself in those that had not even considered it before now. I don't know that I could do it. Could you? Could you truly leave behind everything and follow where the Lord leads you? Has your comfort in this life become more important to you than following Him? Just an FYI, in case you're not aware: that makes your possessions and your comfort an idol. It makes my possessions and comfort an idol, as well. I am not pointing my finger at anyone, anymore than I am pointing it right back at myself. (Probably more so, back at myself.)

I have been thoroughly convicted recently of my love of my comfort and financial security. I have become increasingly aware that I live a life that few would be hard pressed not to describe as comfortable, at the very least. More likely, they would describe me and my family as wealthy. We live in a nice 4 bedroom house, in a suburb of a major California city, we have two cars, and more possessions than we ought to have. Is it enough that we give everything we have that is extra to others (whether it be our home church or people in need)? Or should we be looking at how we can enjoy less comfort and luxury, so that we have even more to give? These are the questions I ask myself. Do we truly need a nice house, in a nice neighborhood? Do we truly need a closet full of clothes? Do we truly need a garage full of items just being stored- just in case we might someday want to use them? Do we truly need a refrigerator and freezer full of food, that we don't consume immediately? Do each of our children truly need their own bedrooms? Regardless of whether these are the actual number of possessions we have or not, the fact remains that anything over and above an actual need is just that- a comfort and a luxury.

Though having things, in and of itself, is not a bad thing, it only becomes an idol when we lead others astray by giving them a false impression of who the Lord is, and what He wants for our lives. It's true, the Lord does bless us, and I would say that He enjoys blessing us for our faithfulness. However, when it comes to the point that His glory is no longer the main attraction in your life, and your possessions are, it becomes nothing short of sinful idolatry. Having your lifestyle be the main attraction to others, detracts from God's glory in many ways. The only way that it could give God glory, is if God's love was manifested by how financially blessed He made all believers., and that is just not true.

Despite what many Word-Faith teachers preach, God does not care whether or not you are financially secure. He does not care if your stock portfolio increases in value. It does not even matter to Him what you wear, so long as you keep your faith in Him, and are an effective ambassador for Him. For some, that does mean clothing- but only because it is a NEED. Sometimes, His blessings do manifest themselves as income. However, He doesn't bless because we give...He blesses so that we CAN give.

How many of you have thought about this? I mean truly thought about it deeply and prayerfully? Have you ever wondered if your life and your lifestyle portray a love of God, or just a love of money and things? It's not enough to be a good person, or even a good person that has faith in Jesus as their Savior. There are countless numbers of people in the World that could be considered good, and give even more than many Christians do. The only acceptable means of giving God all the glory is to let your love of Him, manifest itself to all, in every aspect of your life. Including what you own, and what you cherish. How many of us, today, can truly say that we die to self each day; if we will not give up our creature comforts to prove our love of Him above all?

Don't get me wrong. I am fully aware that for some unbelievers, seeing Christians that seem to live nice, comfortable lives, is an incentive to believe. How sad though, that we should have ever gotten to the point that we would give the impression that following Christ will make our lives comfortable, and that our possession would multiply for our own comfort?! That is not a true vision of Christ, nor is it what the Bible clearly teaches for those that would follow Him. Jesus was clear that those that follow Him will have difficulty. That those that follow Him would be impoverished, in many cases. He was clear that our treasure should be in Heaven, rather than here on earth. He was also more than clear that all that we have is meant to further His work, and His message here on earth. It was never meant for us, as believers, to hoard our blessings, and to keep our storehouses full, for ourselves to use.

Having shared my epiphany with you, I invite you to analyze and pray about your own life. Only God can determine the state of your faith, and only God can judge your heart. What will He find is your greater love? Him or what you own and possess? I, obviously, will be praying about how He wants me to use this knowledge, and how I am to apply it to my own life; and I encourage you to do the same. Just imagine how much we could glorify the Lord, if we were willing to give up even a portion of our wants- seeing them for what they are, and not as needs! I pray the wisdom that only God can provide, and the discernment that only prayer and His intercession can bring, over your life and mine today. May you be blessed in all aspects of your life, and may you and I, both, use those blessings to give Him glory above all things.

Old Wounds- A Beautiful Mess Part 1 by Shalene

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13 NKJV

While the verse above is not what yesterday's sermon was about, nevertheless, yesterday's sermon in church spoke to me. We were studying one of the miracles of Jesus. This was the third week of a six week series on the miracles of Jesus. You can listen here, if you so choose. (The sermon notes are also available here, if you want them.) It wasn't so much the miracle that Jesus performed, and that which was the sermon topic that had me thinking, so much as the fact that we all have wounds that keep us from being our very best, and more than just a beautiful mess.

All of us bring old wounds into the present on a consistent basis. In some instances, it clouds our judgement, and in others, it's just a minor irritating reminder. Having been married before, and having a husband that was married before, I can guarantee that there have been "ghosts" of the past that have haunted our marriage. I also know that my childhood has brought many such wounds.

One such circumstance happened the other day. My husband was playing around with me, and lifted his arm as though he was going to swipe at me, and I involuntarily flinched. Now, I know without a doubt that my husband would never hit me, but my old wounds from childhood have caused me to flinch at even a hint of violence.

I relate this story to you, because I think many of us flinch away from asking God for anything, because we don't want to be hurt. We shy away from any amount of brokenness and dependence, because we don't want to be vulnerable. We don't want anyone to take away our sense of being able to take care of ourselves. Even when common sense tells us we can't. And even when our faith tells us we must. So today, I pray that we will all learn how to be broken, before Our Lord, knowing that He will never harm us, and He will never forsake us. Isn't that a beautiful thought?! Knowing always that there is One that we can always depend on, One that always has our best in mind.

--Lord, thank you for seeing me as more than just a beautiful mess. Thank you for having plans for me. Thank you for being a God we all can depend upon. Lord, I thank you for taking my old wounds, and causing them to make me pause and think of You. Thank you for healing my old wounds, and making them just a slight scar of a reminder. May I always, rest in You. I pray these things in Jesus' Holy Name. Amen

Casting Crowns- The Word Is Alive

God Is Our Provision by Shalene

After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as [it is] in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. Matthew 6:9-13 KJV

I have discovered something recently, that I don't know how I managed to miss in all this time. That is: the concept of "daily bread". I never really got what this meant. Now, for a little background: some of you know that I grew up in a household that was Catholic, and did learn some of the prayers that went along with that practice, and learned how to say my rosaries, and everything. However, it was always by rote, that I said them. They meant nothing. I did not realize that one of the prayers- the Lord's Prayer, was something that was actually in the Bible. I also did not know that "bread" did not mean literally "bread."

What does it mean then, you ask?

Our daily bread is His Holy Word. I read something today, that really put this in perspective. It is from the study that I am doing right now, of Beth Moore's book "A Woman's Heart God's Dwelling Place." In it she states:

How deeply our Provider wants us to recognize that He is our daily provision. Our lives could never be sustained on a once-a-week meal; yet we often expect a hearty Sunday serving to be enough to sustain spiritual growth.

How true that is! How often do we expect our church's sermons to give us the information we need to grow spiritually, and then never really bother to crack open our Bibles for ourselves.

Now, thankfully, that is no longer the case for me, most of the time, thanks to these articles I write for you- my readers. I want to thank you all for that. By reading what I am led to write, you are helping me to grow. Ok, now back to my point.

So He humbled you, allowed you to hunger, and fed you with manna which you did not know nor did your fathers know, that He might make you know that man shall not live by bread alone; but man lives by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the LORD. Deuteronomy 8:3 NKJV

Are you living? Or are you dying? Do you fill yourself up each day with the only Provision that is necessary for a Spirit filled life? Remember, one of the many names of our Lord is Jehovah-Jireh "God will provide." Do you trust Him each day to provide for you? Or do you rely on yourself?

I've also learned another powerful truth, since becoming a Christ follower, and that is that so long as I rely on myself, I fail. When I rely on Him, my life is blessed beyond compare. I do not worry about tomorrow, for today has worry enough of it's own. (Matthew 6:34 NKJV)

Focus on these Scripture verses today:

O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it. Psalm 139:1-6 NKJV

Lord, I thank you each day, that You are my provision, daily. If I focus on You, and the things that are of You, I cannot go wrong. I will become more like You in all that I do and say. I will become the effective witness that You created me to be. I thank You Lord, that You always have my best interests in Your Divine Plan. I pray these things in Jesus' Holy Name, Amen.